It was a breakdown of epic proportions that was never formally diagnosed (as if you can diagnose someone else's reality), but was somewhere on a spectrum of anxiety, depression and PTSD.
3 months into the experience, I wrote a blog about it which you can read here.
It's now 5 years later and I've had and continue to have recurrences of the same condition at varying levels of intensity, although none as bad as the original 6-9 month long stretch. Less intense episodes, whilst not delivering the stupefying "madness" of the original crash, have rendered me incredibly irritable, negative, and tired beyond belief from lack of sleep caused by said lows, so I feel like I've experienced a solid range.
Most of these relapses have been a result of coming off medication in too short a time frame or during periods of stress and/or other illness. She's a fickle beast...
Feel free to share if you think it would help others understand the trauma that mental illness can be.
Jeremy Zinzan | Founder | Be Here Now
PS That's my lovely family above, I'm second from left
During my recovery it became apparent that just taking a pill, whilst giving me substantial relief, was just one part of a myriad different strategies I needed to implement to get better, to get zen.
So I decided to launch this project as a way to share my learnings from my experience, as a way for me to help others.
As a way for sufferers to help themselves and each other, I also started a supportive community - feel free to join it.
And the podcasts I do are simple - I get normal folks to share their mental health experiences - hearing other's people stories was super-helpful for me when I was nutso.